Give me a damn Xanax Please!!!!!

My damn nerves are shot to pieces right now. This old man I'm working w/ today is working on my ass. He will not shut the hell up, ok seriously I don't give a shit about what you are reading. I'm on ebay, leave me the hell alone. Not to mention, he does know how to do anything! He can count pills and that is it. So I'm running around like a chicken w/ my head cut off!!!!
Its prob not all him, I'm just in one of those moods where every lil damn thing is working my nerves.

Since I'm already in a pissed off mood lets talk about my in-law. It was Boug's bday this weekend and he worked for his day all day long on his bday to get extra money (trying to get a new house). I mean the poor thing busted his ass all weekend long for his dad and do you know what he got sixty damn dollars. WTF?! He payed him 5 dollars and hour. Not to mention the parts my husband paid for, so he really made like 30 dollars. Umm..he's dad is a DON and his step mother a nurse md, so they have oodles of money. His dad is retired from the army and the state plus his income now. whatever! I hate how my husband gets treated by them, he doesn't have a mother, she left when he was a year old. The neighbor actually called his dad at work and told him the kids were outside wandering around. Yeah, I don't know what kind of mother just up and leaves her babies!!!! His dad is so hard on him, nothing he ever does is good enough, he gets called stupid (which pisses me off) but he says he has never back talked his dad and doesn't plan on starting. I keep telling him he's going to blow up one of these days! He's got some suppressed anger issues. Do you know he knocks on his dad's door before going in and ask if he can get something to drink! But get this, he will just walk into my mama's house and act like he's home. I think he looks at my mama as his own.
He's so much closer to my family than his own. I talk or see my parents everyday, and we say I love you all the time. I am thankful I have a close family. I always feel awkward around his dad like he looks down on us or I have to be on my game all the time. Though, Boug says he dad really like me and that is odd for him. He hates my sister-in-law, speaking of which, she is an instigator, always trying to stir something up. One of these days I am going off on her or Lynn(the step mother)! Now the step-mother is a bitch, boug hates her! Do you know what she gave him for his bday?! A bag of popcorn and chips!!!! WTH?! Not even the brand, OK! She acts like her shit don't stink! One time she was like being all mean to his niece, and Nikki(sister-in-law) was just sitting there(she talks a lot of shit but would never say anything) I'm sorry if she ever thought about talking to Griff the way she was to Marie, they would had to call the law on my big ass, because I would have jumped on her skinny donkey looking ass! Chris' dad is wonderful w/ Griff and Griff loves him to death, but I think he lets her control him way too much. He keeps all kinds of stuff from her!
I feel a little bit better now! I did get aggravated last night, It was like 9 and I was ready to go, my child was tearing down the place and his dad had them moving the hot tub, I sent Austin out to ask when they were going to be done, well, his dad (kinda a smart ass) looked at me a Nikki and said which one of u are so ready to go? (Nikki's face got all red, she was the main one saying I gotta go blabla) I said Yeah, that was me, its 9 and i have a child that needs to go to bed. Nikki looked at me like I was crazy. This was before I found out how much Boug got paid! Do you know that the other day I got pissed off about something and she kept emailing me and wanting to know what was wrong (trying to stir shit up like she always does) I just ignored her, because I am trying to keep peace and not go off, because I just blow up and I'm like a tornado, was I finally let everything out (got 3 years built up) Well, last night time I sat my happy ass down, she was asking me about it. I flat out told her to quit being so damn noisy and quit asking me.
Well, I think I've done enough venting for today!