20 months old

My baby is 20 months old today! He's growing up so fast!

Mid sneeze

He wouldn't smile for anything, this morning.

He's doing his "smell it" fist. (my mama holding him)

These are great!

Bad day

So Saturday I had to work at Gaston...It seemed like everything kept going wrong. I pulled the wrong drugs twice, entered a prescription wrong...um lets see what else, this lady starts pounding on the door after we were closed. Well, apparently I didn't make her enough copies and she was screaming at me and wouldn't leave, "I'm going to tell your manager". So we got into it, I know I made her those copies. Today, I found out I put the damn labels in the printer wrong and now its broke. I'm really paranoid I am messing up too much and they are going to get tired of it...I just feel like T-total shit right now.

Slowly...

So this is day 6 of my diet and I have lost 3 lbs! I have been watching calories and portions. I also started walking about a mile. Hopefully I will have the will power to stay on track!

MYOB!

You know the saying Behind every bitch there is a man who man her that way. This is true. I lived with a man for almost 3 years that control, abused me mentally and physically and broke me down. So I vowed to myself that never let anyone run me over, or take crap from no one! I have always been a little mouthy but oh lord, the older I get the worst I get.

So we are eating at Ryan's and Griffin starts taking his top of his cup, of coarse when I try to pry the cup out of his hands he screams holy hell. In the corner of my eye I see this women staring at us. I mean, not just glancing over, I mean full blown all up in my shit. I absolutely hate when people do that! Like really, have you not ever seen a toddler throw a hissy fit?! Well, I was getting pissed, so I mouth "What bitch, turn around and mind your own damn business". That just works on my nerves...Its not like he is 4 and running around acting like a hellyun ya know. He still a baby and doesn't understand what he can't have his way. So until then, I will take up for my baby and cuss out anyone who gives us nasty looks! He might be a hellyun but he's my hellyun!

My gift from God

My life didn't start until Griffin came along. That little boy is my everything. It doesn't matter what kind of day I am having...He can brighten it. He has brought me some much joy and happieness. He makes me want to be a better person. I am blessed to have a wonderful healthy boy, he is truely my gift from God. Mama loves you doodlebug!

I found a few poems, I thought we great and really hits the heart (gives me chills)...Hope you enjoy them!

Oh how the years go by, Oh how time can certainly fly. From once just a thought in far away dreams,now into my arms and in my eyes gleamthe presence of you. Your laughter and smiles which go on for miles, warms my heart and soul. You're growing up so fast,as I wish each moment with you to last forever. My little boy will someday be a man and right by your side I will forever stand. I will pick up the pieces when you fall, I will hold your hand and help you stand tall. And when the day comes when you are on your own,never feel that you are alone.No matter how near or far apartI am always right there in your heart. Always remember whatever you go throughthat no matter what, I will always love you.

I never want this to go unsaid,So here in this poem, is for it to be said. There are no words to express how much you mean to me, A son like you, I thought could never be. Because the day you were born, I just knew, God sent me a blessing- and that was you. For this I thank Him everyday, You are the true definition of a son, in everyway. It is because of you that my life has meaning, Becoming a mom has shown me a new sense of being. I want you to know that you were the purpose of my life, Out of everything I did- it was you that I did right. Always remember that I know how much you care,I can tell by the relationship that we share. For a son like you there could be no other, And whether we are together or apart, Please do not ever forget-You will always have a piece of my heart.

Come back into the fold of my protective wings. Let not your spirit be restless, For you are here with me. I will always be your one on which to lean, your rock, your number one fan. Fear not child to speak your mind. Undo the wrongs of the day, And together we'll make them right. Speak of heartaches, so that they may be subdued.Share your joys, so that they may be my joys too. Always know that I am with you, For you are my precious gift from God. I will always love you, And keep you safe from life's hardships. I will cushion your bumps,And tend to your scrapes. I will guide you tenderly; Your brilliant eyes will always be my sun; Share with me your heart, And I with you. I love you. Mom

Hold them and kiss them, Gently & carefully in your arms, Pamper them forever, Spoil them with your charms. Show them they are needed, This precious gift you’re given, Show them everyday in everyway, Through the life that they are living. Tell them they are beautiful, They are the sparkle in your eye. Tell them how much you love them,they are your every joy.
Tell to them a story,you needed them to fill your heart, The happiness they’ve given you, From the very start. How your house was dark and lonely, Until they came into your home. Filling it with happiness, The pride they give to you alone. They are your sun that shines each day, Your pleasant dreams at night, Your reason for the life you have, With them in it all things are right. You will always be there for them,A lways be there protecting, Because you were given this precious gift, ALL CHILDREN ARE A BLESSING.

Such a lil man!

I can't not believe how fast Griffin is growing up! It seems like only yesterday I was feeling him kicking inside my tummy. He amazes me everyday, He is talking up a storm..he sounds like he's speaking Chinese somedays. I bought him some big boy underwear and tanktops and he just looks like a lil man! He's growing up so fast!

Wordless Wednesday

***wOnDeFuL wEeKeNd***

Went to the waterpark on Friday, he had so much fun

We had a blast playing in the yard...yes I hosed my child down in the yard, redneck style! He helped Daddy fix the mower!

PORKCHOP!

I COME FROM A FAMILY WHERE IT IS AN INSULT IF YOU DON'T GO BACK FOR SECONDS AT DINNER. WELL, SINCE I HAVE HAD GRIFF I HAD PUT ON WEIGHT, THAT IS SO HARD TO GET OFF. WELL, SEEMS LIKE EVERY DAY SOMEONE FEELS THE NEED TO TELL ME THIS. LIKE I HAVENT NOTICED THAT I'M A PORKER! WELL, I NORMALLY JUST BRUSH IT OFF...YESTERDAY IT GOT TO ME, MAYBE IT WAS THE PMS OR JUST TIRED OF HEARING IT. I WAS FIXING BOUG'S PLATE AND MY UNCLE (BY MARRIAGE) GOES "DAMN GIRL YOU'RE GETTING HUGE, TIME FOR YOU TO LOOSE SOME WEIGHT AND PUT THAT PLATE DOWN" (I SHOULD HAVE SAID WELL, YOU ARE UGLY SO GET OUT OF MY FACE) WELL, I SAT DOWN AND THEN MY NIECE (WE ALWAYS PICK AT EACH OTHER ) GOES MAYBE YOU SHOULD MOW THE GRASS SO YOU CAN GET SOME EXERCISE. WELL, THAT DID IT FOR ME AND RAN OUT CRYING AND BOUG RAN AFTER ME...HE MADE ME FEEL GOOD, HE LET MY FAMILY HAVE IT. HE SAID I WAS BEAUTIFUL AND THAT HE DIDN'T THINK I WAS FAT AND HE WAS TIRED OF PPL MAKING ME FEEL BAD. MY GRANDMA TOLD ME THE OTHER DAY THAT I WOULD BE REALLY PRETTY IF I LOST WEIGHT.
I WOULD NEVER TELL SOMEONE SOMETHING LIKE THAT! YES, I HAVE GAINED A TON OF WEIGHT BUT I AM TRYING TO LOOSE IT AND I HAVE ALWAYS HAD SELF-ESTEEM ISSUES AND YESTERDAY I JUST LOST IT. I HAVE TO SAY THAT MY MOTHER HAS NEVER COMMENTED ON MY WEIGHT! SHE IS VERY SUPPORTIVE AND SHE HEARS THE SAME COMMENTS.
ON THE PLUS SIDE...MY HUSBAND MADE ME FEEL BETTER, TAKING UP FOR ME!

WoRdLeSS wEdNeSdAy

To get me to you!

Well I, I still can remember times When the night seemed to surround me I was sure the sun would never shine on me And I, I thought it my destiny To walk this world alone but now you're here With me Now you're here with me And I don't regret the rain Or the nights I felt the pain Or the tears I had to cry Some of those times along the way Every road I had to take Every time my heart would break It was just something that I had to get through To get me to you To get me to you Well I, I still can recall the days When I had no love around me Makes me glad for every day I have with you And I, I look in your eyes and know I'm right where I belong And I belong with you Always belonged with you And if I could I wouldn't change a thing Wouldn't change a thing baby Because your love was waiting there for me Waiting there for me baby

This song hits home big time for me!!! All the absue and pain I went through w/ Kevin, then my boug came along...Love this song...Its my story!

oh, boy how things change...

A few years ago, you could catch me at any watering hole any day of the week...These days, you can catch me watching Spongebob or playing w/ Griff outside. I used to big a huge party girl and only cared about going out and getting drunk. Now, I can't stand the taste of beer or the smell of liquor. I have been out only once since I have had Griff and that scene sure isn't my scene anymore. I felt like an old fart, wanting to go to home around 11, to go to sleep. I guess I think differently now that I am a mother, its not just about me anymore ya know.

This girl on myspace leaves comments on my page that just really get under my skin like "Well its such a shock to know that you don't drink or anything anymore considering how WILD u used to be.. hehe miss ya take care!" WTF! Uh, yeah its called motherhood bitch, maybe you should take a lesson or two, stank ass bitch!

Ok, getting off that subject and to the point...I love my life just the way it is, looking forward to going home to my boys and watching my TV shows! Might sound like a Really excited life but its my life and I love it!

Flashback Friday

7 months pregnant