Fun in the Sun!!!

Griff thinks he is Mr. Hot Stuff on his bike, he

has to way at everyone!
My sweet baby

Making a run for it

Loves to try and wet you!

Modeling for Mama!

We had a good time, in the yard :)

Time out

Seems like all I do these days is say "no", spank and put Griff in time out. We are now trying out the whole "timeout" thing. Sometimes I can't help but to turn my head and laugh b/c my child is so cute. He knew he did something wrong and before I could even say anything he walked himself to the corner. It was the cutest thing, every time I think about it I just start laughing. He will turn around with the most pitiful face and look at you like "my time up yet". Sometime he thinks it is funny, its so hard for me to be firm w/ him. See I am the "bad cop" Boug on the other hand is a big Ole' softy! He can't take Griff screaming bloody hell and crying. Eh, he pissed me off yesterday, here I am trying to correct Griffin and he's is pitching a fit, just pouring tears and here comes Boug and picks him up and baby's him. I mean it breaks my heart for me to punish him but i don't want my child to be a total hellyin ya know?! Right now I miss him so much, I can't wait to go home and see my lil monster!!!!

Wordless Wednesday

I could spit nails!!!!

We are in the middle of moving, we got most of our stuff out last weekend. Well, this morning my mama called and said there was a car at the old house. Apparently they decided to help speed up the process and took my patio set, dishes and a whole bunch of other stuff. I am so pissed and don't know what to do! We are supposed to be out by the end of the month. I got a call from them like 2 weeks ago and they asked if we were moving out and when. Well, I left them several messages and faxes and she got pissed at me. I guess they decide to take what they wanted. That is my stuff and my life I don't like the fact that they can just come in and help themselves to whatever they want!

Daddy's Girl

Daddy, Take my hand in yours and you will plainly see, How very much I need you now to love and care for me. As my little hand grows, I will need you even more, Everything I do in life, I have never done before. Teach me to be kind and loving, sharing and forgiving, Show me through your acts of love the pure joy of living. The years will pass by quickly and one day I will be grown, I will pass what you have taught me onto children of my own. Hold me always in your thoughts and remember when we are apart, The special love between a child and a daddy's heart

My sweet angel

Griff has hit this awful stage...he will scream holy hell and throw himself on the floor, hit me in the face. We can't hardly go to the store anymore b/c he wont get in the buggy...he wants to be carried or run around like a damn monkey. I am NOT one of those parents who let their children run wild and do nothing. I can't stand that, If I tell you once, I mean it...there will be second time. Granite that Griff is still little so that rule doesn't really apply yet. But he does know when he's doing something wrong, so I will pop him on his butt and say no. One of these days I am going to go off on someone....we will be in a store and Griff is pitching a fit and get a crazy look from someone. I just wanna say "what the hell are you looking at, you never seen terrible two's" I feel like going up to them and slapping them.

I will catch myself laughing sometimes, I will be in middle of disciplining him and he will give me a smile and I can't help but to hug him. He's just so dang cute! I mean look at this face!

Wordless Wed

Bowling

Griff's 1st experience bowling (cousin's bday party)

My big man

He was trying his best to pick up the ball by himself

Go baby go!

He was all pooped out!

Give me a damn Xanax Please!!!!!

My damn nerves are shot to pieces right now. This old man I'm working w/ today is working on my ass. He will not shut the hell up, ok seriously I don't give a shit about what you are reading. I'm on ebay, leave me the hell alone. Not to mention, he does know how to do anything! He can count pills and that is it. So I'm running around like a chicken w/ my head cut off!!!!
Its prob not all him, I'm just in one of those moods where every lil damn thing is working my nerves.

Since I'm already in a pissed off mood lets talk about my in-law. It was Boug's bday this weekend and he worked for his day all day long on his bday to get extra money (trying to get a new house). I mean the poor thing busted his ass all weekend long for his dad and do you know what he got sixty damn dollars. WTF?! He payed him 5 dollars and hour. Not to mention the parts my husband paid for, so he really made like 30 dollars. Umm..he's dad is a DON and his step mother a nurse md, so they have oodles of money. His dad is retired from the army and the state plus his income now. whatever! I hate how my husband gets treated by them, he doesn't have a mother, she left when he was a year old. The neighbor actually called his dad at work and told him the kids were outside wandering around. Yeah, I don't know what kind of mother just up and leaves her babies!!!! His dad is so hard on him, nothing he ever does is good enough, he gets called stupid (which pisses me off) but he says he has never back talked his dad and doesn't plan on starting. I keep telling him he's going to blow up one of these days! He's got some suppressed anger issues. Do you know he knocks on his dad's door before going in and ask if he can get something to drink! But get this, he will just walk into my mama's house and act like he's home. I think he looks at my mama as his own.
He's so much closer to my family than his own. I talk or see my parents everyday, and we say I love you all the time. I am thankful I have a close family. I always feel awkward around his dad like he looks down on us or I have to be on my game all the time. Though, Boug says he dad really like me and that is odd for him. He hates my sister-in-law, speaking of which, she is an instigator, always trying to stir something up. One of these days I am going off on her or Lynn(the step mother)! Now the step-mother is a bitch, boug hates her! Do you know what she gave him for his bday?! A bag of popcorn and chips!!!! WTH?! Not even the brand, OK! She acts like her shit don't stink! One time she was like being all mean to his niece, and Nikki(sister-in-law) was just sitting there(she talks a lot of shit but would never say anything) I'm sorry if she ever thought about talking to Griff the way she was to Marie, they would had to call the law on my big ass, because I would have jumped on her skinny donkey looking ass! Chris' dad is wonderful w/ Griff and Griff loves him to death, but I think he lets her control him way too much. He keeps all kinds of stuff from her!
I feel a little bit better now! I did get aggravated last night, It was like 9 and I was ready to go, my child was tearing down the place and his dad had them moving the hot tub, I sent Austin out to ask when they were going to be done, well, his dad (kinda a smart ass) looked at me a Nikki and said which one of u are so ready to go? (Nikki's face got all red, she was the main one saying I gotta go blabla) I said Yeah, that was me, its 9 and i have a child that needs to go to bed. Nikki looked at me like I was crazy. This was before I found out how much Boug got paid! Do you know that the other day I got pissed off about something and she kept emailing me and wanting to know what was wrong (trying to stir shit up like she always does) I just ignored her, because I am trying to keep peace and not go off, because I just blow up and I'm like a tornado, was I finally let everything out (got 3 years built up) Well, last night time I sat my happy ass down, she was asking me about it. I flat out told her to quit being so damn noisy and quit asking me.
Well, I think I've done enough venting for today!

Born to ride!

Griff loves his Poppie's Harley, you have to like ply his fingers from the bike. He will get my daddy's boots and helmet and go to the door, wanting to ride. Every time he sees or hears a motorcycle the kid goes crazy, he does he's hands like he doing the throttle and makes a room-room noise, its so cute!!! He has a four wheeler but he knows its not the same, so we got him his own lil motorcycle. He had a fit, he wouldn't go to bed because he was so excited!

Typical day

Fat and Happy!!!

I have always had low self-esteem ever since I can remember. I have always struggled w/ weight issues. I know I will never be a size 0, nor do I want to be; I think women look better w/ curves. I still have 45 lbs to loose to be the size before I got pregnant w/ Griff. I have really made up my mind to try this time! I need to get back in shape, not only for me but for my lil man. I get out of breathe so easy and I need to take care of myself so I can watch him grow up. I have only been really skinny once in my life and that was when I was w/ jackass and we know that situation, no wonder I was loosing so much weigh. I much rather be overweight and be happy in love and have a wonderful family than be skinny and unhappy!

Thankful

I don't know what I would do w/out my loving parents...My mother, let's see where do I start?! She is the strongest person I know, she does everything and anything for anyone. My Dad worked hard all his life so we could have nice things. If it was for them I wouldn't be the person i am now. They were my strength and they never gave up on me. They pushed me and I finally left the biggest mistake of my life. They were right there to mend the pieces of my life together. I talk or see them everyday and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't thank God I have the parents I do. They are an inspiration to me, the parenting skills, the uncontinal love, and their marriage (36 years). I know I have the most wonderful parents anyone could have.