21 months!

My baby is 21 months old today!

My weekend...

So my ass hole was pretty much puckered up the whole weekend! Griff got attacked my ants on Friday and had a allergic reaction. His neck and hands were so swollen.
Saturday night he fell on the corner of the fireplace and busted his head. Of coarse the one time I don't jump and crab him, there's blood. Boug picked him up and went to kiss his head (I always kiss the boo-boos) he saw the blood. I looked up and saw his hand full of blood. I ran to the door and got the keys, we rushed him to the er, mind you, Boug yells at me not to put him in the car seat and for me just to hold him. So I strap him in the front set with me (yeah not the safest I know but I wanted to make sure he was going to pass out. I told Boug to put the emergency lights on and of coarse everyone is going as slow as turtles! All, I could think is my baby brain is going to hemorrhage. We finally get there, Boug fills out the papers but he puts his information on the sheet. Of coarse he doesn't know any of his info, I fill out the papers hands shaking like crazy. I realize I have no shoes, no bra, no phone, no purse and I'm in boxers and T-shirt on. I fit right in w/ all the white trash at Lexington Medical Center. I walk around the corner to call my mama, this is where I loose my shit. Up to this point, I've held myself together, let me tell you the sight of blood makes me squeamish but I didn't even think twice about it. Boug is yelling at everyone, b/c they seem not to care that my child is bleeding to death and could have brain damage. We finally get back there and he's fine, no stitches or staples. When his head was finally cleaned up ,It was a little cut and a knot. Of coarse I had to get reassurance that there was no serious damage. I think I watch way too much Grey's Anatomy! I am very grateful that my baby is doing well, right back to his wild self, climbing on everything! Oh, man I would have never imaged motherhood would make you worry so much, I know I have a long road ahead of me!

Went to Frankie's for my niece's bday and they had this cute miniature

bowling alley, Griff loved it!

What a lil man!

He kept throwing the balls down the alley, one right after the other lol

Of coarse, he saw the Harley game and had to get on it

He got into my grocery bags and decided he wanted a Pepsi. And yeah, he knows how to unfasten his car seat now too!

Saturday rambling

SO, IT'S BEEN ALMOST A MONTH SINCE I'VE BEEN WATCHING CALORIES AND CUTTING BACK...I'VE LOST 10LBS SO FAR. MY GOAL IS 30 MORE BY DECEMBER! MY DR. THINKS I SHOULD STEP IT UP AND SHOULD BE LOSING MORE WEIGHT. I THINK I'M DOING DANG GOOD! I HAVE ONLY HAD 1 CHOCOLATE BAR IN A MONTH, THAT ALONE DESERVES A PAT ON THE BACK :)
HE THINKS THAT MY "LARGE BREAST" MIGHT BE CAUSING MY BACK TO HURT...YA KNOW A LOT OF PPL HAVE SAID THAT BEFORE BUT OUT OF ALL THE DR'S I HAVE SEEN OVER THE PAST TEN YEARS HAS NEVER SAID THAT. WHICH MAKES SENSE EVERY SINCE I CAN REMEMBER I HAVE HAD AT LEAST A C CUP (YEAH AT 14). WHEN I GOT PREGGRO I HAD TO WEAR A FREAKING F CUP, YEAH I DIDN'T THEY EVEN MADE A F CUP! THESE DAYS I'M BACK TO A DD! I DON'T KNOW WHY WOMEN WANT LARGE BREAST...BACK PROBLEMS...NO CUTE BRAS...HARD TO FIND BRAS....CAN'T FIND CLOTHES TO FIT! I COULD ALWAYS GET A BREAST REDUCTION BUT HELL, I MIGHT TIP OVER IF THEY TOOK AWAY MY TA-TA'S! I WOULD HAVE TO LEARN HOW TO WALK AGAIN LOL!

YUM!

Boggie

This Boggie, the newest addition to our family. Griff is crazy about dogs, so I finally gave in and got him one, not to mention I am allergic to dogs (but I couldn't say no). He was so excited, clapping and squealing. He calls him Boggie, Doggie and Gizzy (gizzy is my mama's dog). He seems to be really good with my hell child so far. Griff tries to pick him up & rip his ears and tail off, Boggie just sits there licking him. They are so cute together...last night Boggie was chasing Griff around the house (Griff laughing hysterically). Every child should have a dog :) He has already brought my lil man so much joy!

Baby Fever

I go back on forth on the whole having another baby. Some days I want to and other days I think, about how much I love Griffin and wonder if I would love the other baby the same. I know that probably sounds weird and I'm sure I would love them both equally. I also don't want to take any attention away from my lil monster and now I can spoil him and buy him anything. If we had another baby then money will be tight but I'm sure we would work it out. I want Griffin to have sibling to play with and be close to. I have always wanted a big family and if I could I would. The owner brought her 7 month old in today to work and I've been playing and holding him and it just makes me want another one. I want to wait until Griffin starts kindergarten. I don't want to wait to late my family has a lot of "womanly" problems and both my sister and mother had a hysterectomy by the age of 35! I keep playing with the baby here and makes me want one more. I guess we will see!

CAN THIS DAY BE ANY LONGER?

I AM SO TIRED OF FEELING BAD! I'VE HAD BACK PROBLEMS ON AND OFF FOR ABOUT 11 YEARS NOW. I HAVE BEEN TO NUMEROUS DOCTORS, XRAYS, BLABLA AND THEY CAN'T FIND ANYTHING WRONG WITH MY BACK. LATELY I AM NOT GETTING ANY KIND OF RELIEF, IT HAS BEEN CONSTANT FOR A WEEK NOW. I FEEL LIKE I AM GOING TO BREAK NOW AND START CRYING RIGHT NOW. TOP THAT OFF I AM WORKING W/ AN OLD MAN THAT IS ABOUT TO WORK MY LAST DAMN NERVE. LETS SEE HE WAS SMACKING HIS FOOD LIKE THERE WAS NO TOMORROW. HE FEELS THE NEED TO TELL ME "THERE'S SOMEONE WALKING UP, THERE'S SOMEONE PULLING UP TO THE WINDOW!" LIKE I DON'T SEE THEM OR SOMETHING! HE FEELS THE NEED TO TELL ME WHAT TIME IT IS! AH, I AM SERIOUSLY ABOUT TO LOOSE MY SHIT. WHEN MY BACK HURTS I GET SO ILL, I CAN'T STAND MYSELF.

♥

He wouldn't look at me for nothing,

He got a big boy car seat, he's growing up so fast!

He's all serious, prob thinking enough w/ the pics mama!

Ah-chew!

Griffin playing peek-a-boo