PORKCHOP!

I COME FROM A FAMILY WHERE IT IS AN INSULT IF YOU DON'T GO BACK FOR SECONDS AT DINNER. WELL, SINCE I HAVE HAD GRIFF I HAD PUT ON WEIGHT, THAT IS SO HARD TO GET OFF. WELL, SEEMS LIKE EVERY DAY SOMEONE FEELS THE NEED TO TELL ME THIS. LIKE I HAVENT NOTICED THAT I'M A PORKER! WELL, I NORMALLY JUST BRUSH IT OFF...YESTERDAY IT GOT TO ME, MAYBE IT WAS THE PMS OR JUST TIRED OF HEARING IT. I WAS FIXING BOUG'S PLATE AND MY UNCLE (BY MARRIAGE) GOES "DAMN GIRL YOU'RE GETTING HUGE, TIME FOR YOU TO LOOSE SOME WEIGHT AND PUT THAT PLATE DOWN" (I SHOULD HAVE SAID WELL, YOU ARE UGLY SO GET OUT OF MY FACE) WELL, I SAT DOWN AND THEN MY NIECE (WE ALWAYS PICK AT EACH OTHER ) GOES MAYBE YOU SHOULD MOW THE GRASS SO YOU CAN GET SOME EXERCISE. WELL, THAT DID IT FOR ME AND RAN OUT CRYING AND BOUG RAN AFTER ME...HE MADE ME FEEL GOOD, HE LET MY FAMILY HAVE IT. HE SAID I WAS BEAUTIFUL AND THAT HE DIDN'T THINK I WAS FAT AND HE WAS TIRED OF PPL MAKING ME FEEL BAD. MY GRANDMA TOLD ME THE OTHER DAY THAT I WOULD BE REALLY PRETTY IF I LOST WEIGHT.
I WOULD NEVER TELL SOMEONE SOMETHING LIKE THAT! YES, I HAVE GAINED A TON OF WEIGHT BUT I AM TRYING TO LOOSE IT AND I HAVE ALWAYS HAD SELF-ESTEEM ISSUES AND YESTERDAY I JUST LOST IT. I HAVE TO SAY THAT MY MOTHER HAS NEVER COMMENTED ON MY WEIGHT! SHE IS VERY SUPPORTIVE AND SHE HEARS THE SAME COMMENTS.
ON THE PLUS SIDE...MY HUSBAND MADE ME FEEL BETTER, TAKING UP FOR ME!

WoRdLeSS wEdNeSdAy

To get me to you!

Well I, I still can remember times When the night seemed to surround me I was sure the sun would never shine on me And I, I thought it my destiny To walk this world alone but now you're here With me Now you're here with me And I don't regret the rain Or the nights I felt the pain Or the tears I had to cry Some of those times along the way Every road I had to take Every time my heart would break It was just something that I had to get through To get me to you To get me to you Well I, I still can recall the days When I had no love around me Makes me glad for every day I have with you And I, I look in your eyes and know I'm right where I belong And I belong with you Always belonged with you And if I could I wouldn't change a thing Wouldn't change a thing baby Because your love was waiting there for me Waiting there for me baby

This song hits home big time for me!!! All the absue and pain I went through w/ Kevin, then my boug came along...Love this song...Its my story!

oh, boy how things change...

A few years ago, you could catch me at any watering hole any day of the week...These days, you can catch me watching Spongebob or playing w/ Griff outside. I used to big a huge party girl and only cared about going out and getting drunk. Now, I can't stand the taste of beer or the smell of liquor. I have been out only once since I have had Griff and that scene sure isn't my scene anymore. I felt like an old fart, wanting to go to home around 11, to go to sleep. I guess I think differently now that I am a mother, its not just about me anymore ya know.

This girl on myspace leaves comments on my page that just really get under my skin like "Well its such a shock to know that you don't drink or anything anymore considering how WILD u used to be.. hehe miss ya take care!" WTF! Uh, yeah its called motherhood bitch, maybe you should take a lesson or two, stank ass bitch!

Ok, getting off that subject and to the point...I love my life just the way it is, looking forward to going home to my boys and watching my TV shows! Might sound like a Really excited life but its my life and I love it!

Flashback Friday

7 months pregnant